 
Soul Age/Level: Mature 3, manifesting same
This is a 3rd level Mature soul, deep in the throes of the 4th Internal Monad, which can indeed make everything else loom just a bit larger. However we do see that this 3rd level is indeed manifesting at the present time. In other words, as operating from within this 3rd level, the fragment so identified will be learning to feel his feet under him in the Mature cycle. In other words, this is the level in which to really begin exploring relationships and human interaction in a more meaningful way than in previous cycles. In addition, this fragment is also choosing to learn something of moderation: in fact, we would say that is a Life Theme for this fragment, not to be confused of course with Life Task or other designations. A Life Theme will be a set of recurring circumstances or overarching sets of data and input that reflect much of what the particular lifetime is all about. In this case, then, we refer to the Life Theme of Moderation as this is reflected in various ways, as we shall later refer.
Role: Artisan
The role is evident in the type of amount of creation that is occurring at all times. This is not necessarily an ARTISTIC lifetime, and art should not be confused with creation. That said, we see that there has been some amount of parental and cultural imprinting that blocks natural creative impulses, and as a result that urge to create has had to manifest in other ways. The Artisan needs to realize that by his very presence he is at ALL times creating; in other words, energetic impulses from thoughts and from simply existing are sensed on a deep level by others. As a result, tiny shifts are ever being made in the world around the artisan. It is important to realize the climactic effects you have upon others, as this can be a highly useful form of creation, especially when more intentional energy is applied to its use.
Casting: Sage
The Sage flavor is noticeable in the almost incessant need for expression. An Artisan with Sage casting is likely thinking mainly of creating and the audience for whom the creation comes. However, we see that expression in its purest form is at times difficult for this person. There are perceived blocks to the fulfillment of what the life’s dream has always felt to be. Some of these will likely be cleared during the 4th internal monad, but there are also other issues that are giving a sense of perplexed wonder to him in terms of what CAN be expressed and what he WANTS to express. That dichotomy will likely follow him for many years to come.
Essence Twin: Scholar
The neutrality coming from the scholar energy from this discarnate and heavily involved essence twin is often what is first perceived by others. It allows the fragment to remain apart from the crowd, as he sees it, and to steadfastly maintain relationships at a distance. There is no judgment is this; it simply is. However, by realizing that connections CAN be made on a deeper level if one were to allow oneself to abandon some of the perceived safety found in remaining ever neutral and therefore dis-involved, we see that more satisfaction can be received from various types of relationships. The Scholar energy also manifests in an attention to detail and a collecting of knowledge. In turn, there is a wish to digest and then express this knowledge, some tendencies of which have felt stifled in the past. Again, we see a way clear from this by relaxing the standards that have been held so tightly and to begin to allow the natural ebullience of expression to come bubbling forth. It is possible that by surrounding oneself with an entirely new and different group of people, as is likely to be the case for a while, that you can then step out of the box that has harnessed you in the past and allow yourself to let go of the bonds that have made expression a thing of discomfort. In other words, you may find it more comfortable, soon, to let loose and be more yourself.
Task Companion: Priest, discarnate
This essence is in frequent contact, as there is a project that has spanned three lifetimes thus far that is in its finishing stages. You may be feeling a sense of nearing completion to certain aspects of your life, which may at times be disorienting and cause you to wonder if your life will soon come to an end, but we assure you that the feeling is more likely due from this long-term project being wrapped up over the next 5-10 years. Which in the long-term, of course, is a relatively short amount of time. The bleedthrough from this Priest energy, then, because of the close nature of this work and the project you have embarked upon together, is fairly heavy. This would be, then, an attribute that seems or feels visible to many, and to yourself as well. There is frequently, for example, the feeling or question in your mind, “What is good for the largest number of people? How can I influence people’s lives in order to help them?” We think you have devised ways already f working effectively with this energy.
Cadence/Greater Cadence: Scholar/Warrior
Cadence position manifests mainly in how you present yourself to the world and in your closer and more intimate relationships. Cadence, then, of Scholar will present as a focused individual bent on gaining information for its own sake. The Scholar typically has some difficulty with relationships and does not enjoy a close communion although often longs for one. There is a dichotomy, then, in the Scholar energy as it presents within you: on the one hand you keep people at arm’s length but on the other you wish for a more meaningful interaction. Greater Cadence position relates mainly to external matters. This is how others view you and is also your “ideal” presentation to others. As a Warrior, you are able, again, to apply focus and to become fixated on a task to allow its efficient completion. This helps in your work and allows others to view you as competent and efficient. The Warrior energy can at times becomes enmeshed in what is being created by the Artisan aspect: at times there is a sense of almost inertia, as the creation is sought yet must focus through the tiniest pinhole of Warrior intention in order to manifest. This has created some frustration for you; we see that this frustration can be mitigated by consciously ALLOWING the expression of the creation to come through, instead of attempting to MAKE it happen.
Goal: Dominance
The goal of Dominance is expressed in this lifetime due to a choice relating to the overarching three-life theme of Moderation. It would be thought that Moderation and Dominance run counter to one another, but the focus of this goal in this lifetime is to achieve balance through expressing the goal through the overarching theme. Dominance is about ALLOWING the empowerment of the Self to come forth and be present. In other words, by expressing what is often kept underlying as the true self, the entire aspect of the self, you are empowered and can then utilize that power in order to affect others. This is true leadership: leading by being an example of what the entirety is of the spectrum of possibilities for others. By incorporating the theme of Moderation here, there is a checks-and-balances effect that ensures that ego enters into the equation only very rarely.
There has been a struggle, however, with Dominance in your personal relationships. There has been in the past, sensed by others, a need to implement a balance of power. Note that this need has not been generated by yourself, but has been the issue that belongs to the other person. This has created within you, however, a propensity to downplay your regard for your own wholeness. We suggest, then, that the needs of you and those with whom you are in relationship with can best be served by remembering to honor all the aspects of yourself. This will help alleviate a desire on the part of others to exert influence over you.
Mode: Passion
Due to early childhood imprinting, although passion is your chosen mode, you often slide to Reserve. This has created within you an inner tension that erupts from time to time as a need to create conflict in order to relieve the tension. This need for conflict appears to others as periodic bouts of rage for seemingly no reason. By allowing yourself to turn to expression and creativity as outlets for this inner conflict, you may help reduce the inner tension that resides within you. There are many ways to express your inherent creativity. It may be well to choose venues and media that take you outside your normal sphere from time to time. This will assist you in resolving your inner conflict because the expression will make no demands upon that conflict directly, and instead will simply help relieve it.
Attitude: Skeptic
Choosing the attitude of the Skeptic assists you by forcing you to constantly weight the attributes of everything. You must first approach issues as if there is no hope of resolving them. By further exploration, you find creative ways of generating resolution. This works particularly well when there is interpersonal conflict that is not at a particularly intimate level. In other words, the skeptic attitude allows you to thoroughly investigate the various aspects of a situation, and to find ways to resolve them without creating discomfort in others.
There can be, however, a sense of frustration on an inner level as the classic skeptic often sees life’s glass to be half empty. It creates a weight that often lies heavily upon you, as you feel a burden to always make the correct choice. We suggest, then, that you begin to consider that there are no incorrect choices. Every choice is valid, and every choice leads to growth. The weight of responsibility for making correct choices need not rest upon your shoulders.
Centering: Emotional part of Physical
Being physically centered makes you acutely aware of all of your sense as they affect you in a physical manner. In other words, sight, smell, taste, sound and touch are all an integral part of your every experience. Contrast this with those who are rarely in touch with their own bodies. Therefore for you, it is especially important to provide care for the vehicle that is your main sense of input. Adequate rest, hydration, and nutrition should be of utmost importance in your life. You may find that in times where these are not possible you are left feeling empty and isolated from your self. The emotional part of your centering means that what is felt in your body arises first as emotion. It may be difficult, then, to ascertain what it is you are feeling, as you feel it physically and quite intensely. It may be useful then to, as often as possible, allow yourself time to perform some stream of consciousness writing exercises. You may find this quite emotionally draining at first, and you may even be overwhelmed in a physical sense of what occurs when you perform this. However, over time we see that you will likely find yourself feeling more balanced and grounded than you have previously.
Chief Feature: Martyrdom, Stubbornness
Through the lens of Martyrdom you experience the fear of worthlessness. This colors, at this time, all your actions and interactions. Understand that this is not necessarily a thing to exorcise from your life; rather, it is for you to choose to choose to shed light on this lens and your own experience that colors your every move. By adding light you illuminate your own darkness and therefore show yourself and others the lack of truth in those fears.
Through Martyrdom you choose to allow others to enact upon you rather than taking the horse by the reins yourself. You choose to allow this because, of course, the fears that if you did not then your worth would be found to be less than that of others. By allowing others to choose for you, you bring yourself into a never-ending spiral that continues to affect your interactions with others. The spiral continues because you then never allow yourself to speak up and say the truth of what you want, and the disparity between that and what you truly wish grows ever larger, continuing, as we said, the spiral. As the disparity grows it becomes more and more impossible to break the cycle.
Stubbornness is the fear of change. This works almost at odds with Martyrdom, creating an internal tension and sense of conflict. Stubbornness fears others enacting upon you, yet Martyrdom invites it. We would say that in general, however, Stubbornness is most often engaged only by those closest to you: those who, ironically, you fear vulnerability with the most. And, ironically, it is also with these in your life that Martyrdom comes into play the most strongly.
Again, however, there is a way out: as illogical as it may seem, there can be a purpose behind fully acknowledging your deepest fears, even if only to yourself (although it is more effective if acknowledged to another). Again, by shining light on what you fear most, you will often find that it dissipates. Do this often enough and the lens of chief feature begins to take a different shape and is no longer controlling your reactions but instead becomes simply another acknowledged part of yourself.
Frequency: 47
Although your frequency is a relatively middle-of-the-road 47, you often appear as being more intense to others. However, frequency manifests through you in your ability to assimilate input. Since your lens of input is channeled through the 5 inputs of the Artisan, the ease of assimilation is sometimes reduced somewhat by the diffusion produced by moving through the 5 channels. This in no way, however, reduces ultimate effectiveness of what is assimilated, but can cause you to appear “lost in thought” from time to time.
Body Type(s): Lunar/Saturn/Solar 45/35/20
Male/Female Energy Ratio: 69/31
Grand Cycles: 12
# Lifetimes: 138
Cadre/Entity: 3/7
Life Task: Creating a sense around you that life is greater than it seems.
This manifests mainly in the way you relate to others. Your energy imprint is larger than you suspect, and there are many around you who respond to this and are affected by it, which allows them to see a grander sense of their own lives than they had been able to without the effects of your energy near them. This extends, of course, to all whom you encounter, in varying degrees of intimacy and interaction. In other words, you affect those around you simply by being you.
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